Thursday, April 29, 2010

Long time no post!

Wow, it's been a while eh? I'm is crazy busy. It's a good thing, but it just doesn't leave much time to blog. Can you believe May is upon us? Saturday is May 1st, marking the two year anniversary of when we started trying to get pregnant. It's kind of surreal to think about, and to think about how long we might have to continue waiting.

Will we be where we are right now next May? Still no children and wondering and waiting? I certainly hope not, hopefully by this time next year we'll be in some process, whether it be that I'm pregnant or we would be in some adoption process. That's encouraging to think about at least, although I certainly hope we don't have to wait that long, only the Lord knows. That's comforting in a big way.

I'm missing my mom a lot today....her life is crazy right now with my dad being in the Republican US Senate Primary, that goes down in 3 weeks and until then, their lives are non stop. I do feel bad for my mom since she's having to play single parent a lot while my dad campaigns and I wish more than anything that I could be there to help her and hug her when she's tired. I don't get to see her again until June, and that day can't come fast enough. It is so difficult to be so far away from her, especially when she's in a house full of boys, I know the feeling, I was there once, lol.

This verse encouraged me today.....

DANIEL 3:17 If it be so, our God whom we serve is able to deliver us from the furnace of blazing fire; and he will deliver us out of your hand.

We know what happened to Daniel and his friends, God delivered them - that's how big and strong our God is, let Him come to your rescue today! Surrender to Him, lay your all on the altar, He can handle it. Praise the Lord!

Monday, April 19, 2010

Encouraging Changes

Hey everyone! I need to do an update on how my body is doing, I haven't in a while. There are some encouraging signs, and that makes me hopeful, I just finished another period, which means that now, these last 2 cycles I have were only 30-31 days! 2 cycles in a row! I haven't had that "normal" since I was on the birth control pill, which is saying a lot. :)

I'm still losing weight, and doing really good with my eating - I'm getting more into the habit of having self control of what I put in my mouth, and my portions are a lot smaller. My goal is to be 135 lbs by the time I go see Julie again on June 18th and that's only 8 pounds away! And I've been losing a pound a week pretty much, so I have 8 weeks to lose 8 pounds, very doable.

Hopefully my body really starts getting on track, especially since next month will be two years since we got off birth control - perhaps that's the magic month for me, the two year mark, then my body will return to normal and ovulate like it's supposed too. I'm sure praying that's how it is!

I've had a few challenging moments this past week as I was getting off my period, it was funny, because I had NO PMS leading up to this latest period, it just started and very much surprised me. I had more moodiness towards the end and was really struggling with not being a mommy - it hurt so, especially when I have a very close friend who's pregnant and definitely wasn't planning on the pregnancy. It made me mad too, because I've been having such a good attitude lately and leaving it up to the Lord, but when Satan gets me down about not being able to be a mommy, he really gets me down and I feel defeated.

But I'm okay now and I'm distracted again, we have company coming to visit and stay with us for a few days! They come on Friday, and we're very excited! The Lord is good to be constantly providing me with distractions, He knows I need them. :)

Friday, April 9, 2010

Vacation Ramblings

Ahhh, we had a marvelous vacation, and I figured since I had a few moments here, I would blog about our trip. Besides, I just finished cleaning and picking up the apartment, so I deserve some internet time. ;)

Our flights to Maine were very uneventful, even though I did have to get up at the ungodly hour of 3:45 in the morning because our first plane left very early. And on top of that, I got NO sleep the night before, due to the mounting excitement of seeing Jules the next day. But running on adrenaline and then coffee later on, I wasn't tired one bit! And at noon, I was in the arms of my second love and best friend, oh what a glorious moment that was!! She was so cute and beautiful and sexy, and so excited to see me. Madison was there too, looking so cute and shy, it took her a while to remember us and warm up to us again, but once she did, there was no turning back.

That first day we spent chilling and catching up, it was so nice to be back in Chad and Julie's house. And so surreal that we were back in Maine a year after we had moved, crazy! I have listed as many memories as I can remember, I'm sure there were many more, but these stand out to me the most.......

We went out to eat a LOT and had a lot of yummy food, we watched movies and funny TV shows, drank a lot of coffee, laughed until our sides hurt, took pictures, watched the guys race go karts at a local speedway, watched a stupid movie at the theater after having a yummy prime rib dinner at Chad and Julie's favorite restaurant, Julie and I did a lot of makeup and had more coffee, we went to Target and Walmart a couple of times for random things, we went to a Red Claws basketball game that was a lot of fun, several trips to the mall and had more coffee, the guys got a LOT of xbox playing in, we got to see wonderful friends at church on Sunday and then went out for a marvelous Easter lunch, Julie and I had a couple of REALLY late nights just having amazing girl time going shopping, going to the beach and to the Bath waterfront, eating, and just having an awesome time catching up, and I could go on and on.

This trip really brought Jules and I even closer together, seriously, I didn't know two friends could get as close as we are, it hurts so bad that we have to live so far away, but it does make for amazing and unforgettable vacations and trips when we visit each other, so in a way, that's really cool. The goodbye sucked even more than the last one, especially knowing that it might be longer than 6 months before we see each other again. I'm hoping that perhaps I can go by myself to visit Jules in June while Jesse does his 2 weeks for the CG, so I'm crossing my fingers and praying that will work out, because that would be amazing.

All in all, it was a wonderful trip, I love the Jones family, Chadwick, Julie, Dylan, Aleeya and little Madison, they are best of friends and I can't imagine my life without them. They are such a blessing!!!

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Back to Reality

We are back from Maine, after a very long 12 hour travel day yesterday, and it was so good to sleep in our own bed, but I'm missing my best friend terribly!! We had SO much fun, and made so many wonderful memories, and grew even closer, it was so hard to say goodbye. I'll blog more later this weekend, but for now, I'll leave you with a picture from the week.