I'm thinking this will probably be the last blog entry I write until our sweet little one is born. Can't believe I'm 38 weeks today! God is so good!
As the time draws nearer, I can't help but think of these last days Jesse and I have together, with it being just us. It's been just us for the past 5 years, and even though we've been longing for three years to be parents, it's been just us. We won't ever get that back, that's not a bad thing, it's just one of those things I've been thinking about lately.
Did we make the best use of our time together these past 5 years? We've had our ups and downs, and our highs and lows, but I believe we really have made the best of these 5 years together without kids. My mom arrives in six days and will be with us several weeks, so this week is really the last week it will be only us, the ending of an era you might say.
Now don't be concerned, Jesse and I fully intend to get away often, we have tons of family and friends who have offered to be babysitters, and we will not let this precious baby get in the way of our relationship. It was he and I, before she was ever in the picture, and we won't forget that. We believe it's very important to remember us before kids.
On the other side of the coin, I can't help but get SO excited about the holiday season this year with our daughter - every Thanksgiving/Christmas for the past couple years I've longed for a baby to celebrate with, and every holiday that passes, I would write in my journal and say something like, "Maybe next year will be the year we will have our own little baby to celebrate with!" I'm so glad that dream is coming true this year, and I know that the holiday season this year will be a very special one for us.
I also can't help but remember all my precious friends that still haven't had their dreams answered for them this year, I will never forget the long journey of TTC that it took Jesse and I to get to this point, and I will never forget my dear friends who are still in that journey. To them I say, hold on fast, try to enjoy day to day life without getting bogged down in this journey like I did so much and regret, know that I am always here for you and love each and every one of you, I know the Lord holds you each in a special place in His heart.
Anna
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Friday, September 2, 2011
More then ready
Ok so the time has come in my pregnancy where I am extremely ready to have this little girl. I am getting so uncomfortable, and not sleeping, and I'm just tired of being tired. I felt at first as if I couldn't complain at all about things like this in my pregnancy, because we did try for 2 and a half years to get pregnant - but was reminded by sweet friends that it's ok. We have just a little over 3 weeks to go and I am MORE THEN READY to have her on the outside, I think Jesse and I both are. I just pray the Lord will give me the energy to hold out until she does come. I can see the end in sight, praise the Lord!
And now, just for some recent random facts/thoughts in and of my life:
- I have been eating things I never eat the past few weeks, I think my daughter has a sweet tooth - coke, skittles, I've been craving donuts but have yet to get some, key lime pie, ice cream, chocolate milk, and I could go on.
- There are nerves and muscles I never knew existed in my stomach/pelvic area and region until now. Thanks Cassie!
- My husband is amazingly sweet, and is there for me more then I could ever ask, and oh yeah, he's super excited about meeting his daughter.
- My mom comes in the 19th!!!!!!!!
- I love our Bible study small group from church, they are such an encouragement.
- I'm really dreading fall, because that means a horrible MN winter is coming - even though fall is one of my absolutely favorite times of the year. :sigh:
- At least I will have an adorable distraction this winter as I get to know Cassie!
- I wish we had a jacuzzi tub for my poor aching back and muscles.
- I love ice cold water!
- Jesse is a fantastic grill master, we have had majorly yummy food this summer because of it, mmmm.
- God is amazing!
And now, just for some recent random facts/thoughts in and of my life:
- I have been eating things I never eat the past few weeks, I think my daughter has a sweet tooth - coke, skittles, I've been craving donuts but have yet to get some, key lime pie, ice cream, chocolate milk, and I could go on.
- There are nerves and muscles I never knew existed in my stomach/pelvic area and region until now. Thanks Cassie!
- My husband is amazingly sweet, and is there for me more then I could ever ask, and oh yeah, he's super excited about meeting his daughter.
- My mom comes in the 19th!!!!!!!!
- I love our Bible study small group from church, they are such an encouragement.
- I'm really dreading fall, because that means a horrible MN winter is coming - even though fall is one of my absolutely favorite times of the year. :sigh:
- At least I will have an adorable distraction this winter as I get to know Cassie!
- I wish we had a jacuzzi tub for my poor aching back and muscles.
- I love ice cold water!
- Jesse is a fantastic grill master, we have had majorly yummy food this summer because of it, mmmm.
- God is amazing!
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
7 weeks to go!
I suppose it really is time for an update....we have seven weeks to go until our precious daughter makes her entrance into this world, obviously that's her due date, she could come earlier or later, we'll just have to see. This momma is definitely getting a lot more uncomfortable in these last stages of pregnancy, but enjoying all the amazing movements of Cassie in my belly. We have almost everything ready for her arrival, family and friends have been SO very generous with gifts and showers for us during this time, God is SO good, and we can never thank everyone enough for everything they've done. We are blessed! We can't wait to meet Cassandra Faith and show her off to the world, and snuggle and love her to death. :)
Miss my mom a lot these days.....wish she could just move in with us for a couple months! I am really looking forward to the couple weeks she'll be here before and after Cassie gets here, it will be so nice to have her around, hopefully she won't get too bored.
Thinking about life lately, and how difficult things are whether its family, or job, or marriage, or just life in general, we really have no one else to rely on except for Christ. I really want my prayer life to be more, I have so much to pray for, and so much talking to do with my Savior, how can I not want more out of my prayer life?
There seems to be so much on my mind right now, but I can't articulate it all or type it all out without me seeming rambly, so I guess I'll just stop for now. Maybe I'll have more inspiration later on in the next week or two and be able to post a better blog entry.
Until then....remember to look to the Lord for all of your needs, and thank Him for all the blessings you have in your life right now!
Miss my mom a lot these days.....wish she could just move in with us for a couple months! I am really looking forward to the couple weeks she'll be here before and after Cassie gets here, it will be so nice to have her around, hopefully she won't get too bored.
Thinking about life lately, and how difficult things are whether its family, or job, or marriage, or just life in general, we really have no one else to rely on except for Christ. I really want my prayer life to be more, I have so much to pray for, and so much talking to do with my Savior, how can I not want more out of my prayer life?
There seems to be so much on my mind right now, but I can't articulate it all or type it all out without me seeming rambly, so I guess I'll just stop for now. Maybe I'll have more inspiration later on in the next week or two and be able to post a better blog entry.
Until then....remember to look to the Lord for all of your needs, and thank Him for all the blessings you have in your life right now!
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Too long!
Wow, I have really neglected my poor little blog.....sad! We absolutely love our town home, it's so nice to be out of our apartment and into something so much more homey. We have been so busy the last few weeks making it seem like ours, and we are quite happy with what we've done. And I am definitely not complaining about the 400 extra square feet. :) I actually get excited about cleaning and picking up, and I'm getting quite "nesty" getting ready for baby Cassie's arrival.
A little update on Cassie, I am 26 weeks today, only 14 more weeks to go, which makes me think WHOA everytime. She'll be here before we know it! We have another ultrasound a week from Wednesday, just so they can see the chambers of her heart better, and we will get a confirmation that she is definitely a she. ;) As of today she is almost 2 pounds, and 14 inches long! And she is such an active cutie patootie, I love feeling her all the time and I make sure I talk to her often.
July is going to be a very fun month for me - my aunt and cousins from Iowa are coming up to visit the beginning of the second week, and then around the 22nd my mom and sister get to come visit! Jesse and I also get to participate in a fun maternity photo shoot which I'm very much looking forward too. Oh and I also get to have my Sullivan family baby shower at the end of the month, so that will be fun. Speaking of showers, I'm looking forward to closest upcoming one that my friend Johanna is throwing me, this Saturday in fact! It will be a fun brunch get together with a few dear friends, and should be lots of fun. People are SO generous and Jesse and I could not be more grateful!!
In August, I'm looking forward to a Crossings girls get together at Johanna's house - the Crossings is the website where Jesse and I met, people who used to be homeschooled in the ATI program. It will be awesome to see people I've met before, and to meet new faces that I've always wanted to meet!
And then of course September we will be just waiting for the arrival of our precious baby girl.....hopefully she will not be making too late of an arrival, we are quite anxious to meet her. My mom will be flying up a day or two before my due date, and my best friend from Maine is still trying to work things out so hopefully she can be here too. It will be a very exciting time as we expand our family!
Well I guess that's about it.....goodness, I update this about as often as I do my poor journal, lol. I really need to get better. Have a great day everyone!
A little update on Cassie, I am 26 weeks today, only 14 more weeks to go, which makes me think WHOA everytime. She'll be here before we know it! We have another ultrasound a week from Wednesday, just so they can see the chambers of her heart better, and we will get a confirmation that she is definitely a she. ;) As of today she is almost 2 pounds, and 14 inches long! And she is such an active cutie patootie, I love feeling her all the time and I make sure I talk to her often.
July is going to be a very fun month for me - my aunt and cousins from Iowa are coming up to visit the beginning of the second week, and then around the 22nd my mom and sister get to come visit! Jesse and I also get to participate in a fun maternity photo shoot which I'm very much looking forward too. Oh and I also get to have my Sullivan family baby shower at the end of the month, so that will be fun. Speaking of showers, I'm looking forward to closest upcoming one that my friend Johanna is throwing me, this Saturday in fact! It will be a fun brunch get together with a few dear friends, and should be lots of fun. People are SO generous and Jesse and I could not be more grateful!!
In August, I'm looking forward to a Crossings girls get together at Johanna's house - the Crossings is the website where Jesse and I met, people who used to be homeschooled in the ATI program. It will be awesome to see people I've met before, and to meet new faces that I've always wanted to meet!
And then of course September we will be just waiting for the arrival of our precious baby girl.....hopefully she will not be making too late of an arrival, we are quite anxious to meet her. My mom will be flying up a day or two before my due date, and my best friend from Maine is still trying to work things out so hopefully she can be here too. It will be a very exciting time as we expand our family!
Well I guess that's about it.....goodness, I update this about as often as I do my poor journal, lol. I really need to get better. Have a great day everyone!
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Pink is a fantastic color
Yep that's right, most of you know, but I had to blog about it - we found out on Monday that we are having a precious little girl! We were thrilled to hear the news, I have so been wanting a girl since my mom kept having those brothers, and I kept wanting a sister, it's just spilled over into my marriage, and the Lord is SO good. We absolutely cannot wait to meet our little daughter. We are naming her Cassandra Faith, Cassie for short - Cassandra means "Prophet" and Faith obviously means "Faithful", so I think its kind of neat that we'll be having a faithful prophet. :)
To see her so much bigger on the ultrasound this time around was absolutely amazing, she is getting so big and beautiful, and she even gave us a little smile that we were able to capture in a picture. She was bouncing all around and moving and just showing us that she is growing and healthy!
I have been day dreaming ever since we found out she is a girl, and I am just having the sweetest day dreams about what it will be like to be a mommy to our beautiful little girl - it's amazing how much I love Cassie already, its like she's been a part of us forever and I can't imagine life without her now. Her daddy is beyond excited about having a daughter, and I can already see what a wonderful father he's going to be. I truly believe she's going to be a daddy's girl and will have him wrapped around her little finger. ;) Although she might be wrapped around mommy's little finger too, lol.
We are so blessed, the Lord is SO good.....and we will be traveling to Arkansas to visit family a week from today, and then moving into our awesome new town home the first of June! The Lord is blessing so much, and we are so grateful.
To see her so much bigger on the ultrasound this time around was absolutely amazing, she is getting so big and beautiful, and she even gave us a little smile that we were able to capture in a picture. She was bouncing all around and moving and just showing us that she is growing and healthy!
I have been day dreaming ever since we found out she is a girl, and I am just having the sweetest day dreams about what it will be like to be a mommy to our beautiful little girl - it's amazing how much I love Cassie already, its like she's been a part of us forever and I can't imagine life without her now. Her daddy is beyond excited about having a daughter, and I can already see what a wonderful father he's going to be. I truly believe she's going to be a daddy's girl and will have him wrapped around her little finger. ;) Although she might be wrapped around mommy's little finger too, lol.
We are so blessed, the Lord is SO good.....and we will be traveling to Arkansas to visit family a week from today, and then moving into our awesome new town home the first of June! The Lord is blessing so much, and we are so grateful.
Monday, April 4, 2011
Baby news and springy things
I sure have been neglecting my poor blog lately, so sad. I will start out this post by saying, praise the Lord I am finally feeling better and I believe I have finally hit the "honeymoon" phase of my pregnancy, now that I am in my second trimester and will be 15 weeks tomorrow! Yay! I still have smells that bug me every now and then, and I still get extremely exhausted very easily, but the sickness is pretty much gone and I am cooking again and today I am actually doing some apartment spring cleaning - it has been much needed. It is so wonderful to actually feel like doing these things again, so while I feel good, I'm taking advantage of it.
Our little sweet pea is doing exceptionally well, growing like a weed, and we got some really good ultrasound pictures at the DR office the other day, we got a really cute one of the feet, our baby totally has Jesse's long feet and toes, I love it! :) And I know I felt the baby move the other night, I rolled over on my stomach and after a couple of minutes felt a few gloopy taps on my side as if sweet pea was saying, "Stop squishing me mommy!" It was a shocking and lovely experience! I can't wait until baby is bigger and I can feel it even better. We can't wait for the next 5 weeks to fly by because then we get to find out what sweet pea is - boy or girl, pink or blue, another little Anna or another little Jesse.
Until then, I have an exciting trip planned to Maine in exactly 2 weeks and I absolutely cannot wait! I haven't seen my best friend Julie in a year and that is just entirely too long. We get to spend 10 days together, eating Chinese take out, snuggling on the bed watching movies and having girl talks, maternity clothes shopping, makeup application I'm sure, yummy breakfasts, and so much more. We hope to take lots of pictures and make tons of memories! Then at the end of May, Jesse and I get to go to Arkansas to visit my family and show off my baby belly, and have a big church shower with all my family and friends. That will be a lot of fun!
We have been looking for a town home the past month, this apartment is growing too small and we know once the baby comes, we really need a washer and dryer - going over to the in laws with tons of baby stuff to wash would just be too big of a hassle. And we need more room, and Jesse really wants a dog. Oh, and our 3rd floor apartment gets WAY too hot in the summer! So yeah, lol, for all those reasons, we are looking for a town home in the area to rent. We will hopefully be moving into one by June 1st, so that will be exciting - hopefully we find something awesome.
It is SO nice today, I have the windows open while I'm doing some spring cleaning, and its making the apartment smell so good! I've waited months to be able to do this, and its just making me a happy little camper. I think that's about all the update I was planning on doing, so I'd better get back to cleaning and throwing away!
For fun, please share your favorite spring/summer food dish - something yummy and not too heavy! I can't wait to hear what you recommend!
Our little sweet pea is doing exceptionally well, growing like a weed, and we got some really good ultrasound pictures at the DR office the other day, we got a really cute one of the feet, our baby totally has Jesse's long feet and toes, I love it! :) And I know I felt the baby move the other night, I rolled over on my stomach and after a couple of minutes felt a few gloopy taps on my side as if sweet pea was saying, "Stop squishing me mommy!" It was a shocking and lovely experience! I can't wait until baby is bigger and I can feel it even better. We can't wait for the next 5 weeks to fly by because then we get to find out what sweet pea is - boy or girl, pink or blue, another little Anna or another little Jesse.
Until then, I have an exciting trip planned to Maine in exactly 2 weeks and I absolutely cannot wait! I haven't seen my best friend Julie in a year and that is just entirely too long. We get to spend 10 days together, eating Chinese take out, snuggling on the bed watching movies and having girl talks, maternity clothes shopping, makeup application I'm sure, yummy breakfasts, and so much more. We hope to take lots of pictures and make tons of memories! Then at the end of May, Jesse and I get to go to Arkansas to visit my family and show off my baby belly, and have a big church shower with all my family and friends. That will be a lot of fun!
We have been looking for a town home the past month, this apartment is growing too small and we know once the baby comes, we really need a washer and dryer - going over to the in laws with tons of baby stuff to wash would just be too big of a hassle. And we need more room, and Jesse really wants a dog. Oh, and our 3rd floor apartment gets WAY too hot in the summer! So yeah, lol, for all those reasons, we are looking for a town home in the area to rent. We will hopefully be moving into one by June 1st, so that will be exciting - hopefully we find something awesome.
It is SO nice today, I have the windows open while I'm doing some spring cleaning, and its making the apartment smell so good! I've waited months to be able to do this, and its just making me a happy little camper. I think that's about all the update I was planning on doing, so I'd better get back to cleaning and throwing away!
For fun, please share your favorite spring/summer food dish - something yummy and not too heavy! I can't wait to hear what you recommend!
Friday, February 18, 2011
First Trimester
Lets just say I have been neglecting the blog because this first trimester has been kicking my butt! Wow, I have never been so sick and exhausted....this little baby is growing and developing just fine in my opinion. ;) It's difficult too because I have so much going on, and I am SO excited about being a mom, but when day in and day out you just feel absolutely miserable, its just difficult. My husband has had to put up with so much and he is so sweet to do so. I have a month left in this first trimester, and I've heard that the second trimester is like the honeymoon of the pregnancy, so I am VERY much looking forward to it.
We had our first DR appt the other day and it was absolutely amazing to see the teeny heartbeat on the monitor, it's such a miracle! When the DR printed out our ultrasound picture and my name was on it, it was like I was looking down at myself saying, "Is this really happening to me?" And yes it totally is, God is so good.
Oh how I am longing for spring, mostly because in this tiny apartment the stifling smells and things have really been making my nausea worse, which is not good. We have the window open right now, even though it's a little chilly, the sun is out and the fresh air smells so good, spring please come quickly!!
I have a hankering to make homemade bread due to one of my friends having just made a yummy loaf of bread and shared it with the blogging world....so I may just have to make some, it sounds really good right now.
I will try to blog more often, but know that if I'm not, I'm just trying to get through this first trimester and send me an email or give me a call letting me know you're praying for me! :) Love you all!!
We had our first DR appt the other day and it was absolutely amazing to see the teeny heartbeat on the monitor, it's such a miracle! When the DR printed out our ultrasound picture and my name was on it, it was like I was looking down at myself saying, "Is this really happening to me?" And yes it totally is, God is so good.
Oh how I am longing for spring, mostly because in this tiny apartment the stifling smells and things have really been making my nausea worse, which is not good. We have the window open right now, even though it's a little chilly, the sun is out and the fresh air smells so good, spring please come quickly!!
I have a hankering to make homemade bread due to one of my friends having just made a yummy loaf of bread and shared it with the blogging world....so I may just have to make some, it sounds really good right now.
I will try to blog more often, but know that if I'm not, I'm just trying to get through this first trimester and send me an email or give me a call letting me know you're praying for me! :) Love you all!!
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